Lord,
today I have a strong sense
that right here
is exactly where you want me to be.
I suspect
that a bird’s eye view of my journey
would reveal a route that has been circuitous
to say the least.
And yet I know
that you have been by my side
every single step of the way,
leading me and guiding me
with gentleness and patience,
keeping me safe.

Today I have a sense
that you are asking me
to commit to you
obstacles that I encountered
on my journey,
many of which were considerable
and caused me deep pain.

Today I sense
that you are asking me
to stop viewing these incidents
in a negative light.
You are suggesting
that I stop feeling sorry for myself
and that I cease to wonder, “if only”.

Today I sense
that you are inviting me
to embrace those challenges
because they brought me to here,
where I am right now,
and where I belong.

Today I have a sense
that you are asking me
to commit my whole life to you,
past, present and future
and I suspect
that when I embrace my past
it will cease to be a burden.

© Claire Murray, 1st August 2014