It’s a cool, grey, February morning.
The Lagan slips quietly by
as I walk to work,
its still waters reflecting
a grey sky above.
This scene is peaceful
but my soul is troubled
and I am in turmoil.
I dander along the Lagan
hoping to find there
the peace that my soul longs for.
Just past Queen’s Bridge I stop,
dis-spirited,
and lean on the black railings,
gazing across the river.
A tall, steel structure
points towards the morning sky,
towering above surrounding buildings,
its almost-perfect reflection
distorting gently on the ripples of the Lagan.
It reminds me
that right here, right now,
I am being called
to reflect my perfect God
through my imperfect self.
And while I stand looking over the Lagan
a new certainty forms in my mind –
that for reasons best known to Himself
My God wants me to be
exactly where I am in my life
right here, right now,
right in the midst
of all this turmoil.
My despondency vanishes
in an instant
and I feel all fired up,
determined
not to let his situation beat me
convinced
that My God will take care of me.
I turn on my heel
and I stride into work.
Right here, right now
is where My God wants me to be.
And I am content.
© Claire Murray, 10th Feb 2015
Every morning after the school run I have my morning walk. This gives me time to reflect on the beauty of God’s world. I thank God every day that I have now the strength and enthusiasm to do this after being crippled with depression for so long a period. My God did care for me and still does ‘Right Here, Right Now’. Thank you for posting your conversations with God – it is a blessing to read and reread your conversations.
Aurelia, many thanks for your comments. I’m glad that some of the writings resonate with you. And it’s lovely to hear about you being able to enjoy the beauty of every day once again. Take care! Claire