Lord,
is today going to be the day
when everything changed?

I had been confident,
reassured by the high success rate
of this procedure.
But last night I remembered something
that Dolores said to me recently,
“Danny hasn’t been himself for months”
and doubt crept in.

I have watched a small, red spot
grow into a large, weeping sore.
I find myself wondering
what lurks beneath the surface.
I’m concerned.

Lord,
today Danny will catch a glimpse
of his cancer,
will get his first hint
of how much of his body
it has laid claim to.
It’s scary!

Lord,
bless Danny today.
Give him the courage
to take a long, hard look
at his physical self
and to accept
what he is shown there.
Give him the strength
to fight for what can be won,
to accept what he cannot change
and to place himself, in trust,
in your loving hands.

Meanwhile I sit and wait,
wondering whether today will be the day
when everything changed.

© Claire Murray, 9th May 2012