Traffic Cones

Traffic cones block the pavement
as I cycle home from work
on a dark, cold, blowy winter’s evening
after a long day spent
teaching.
I tut with annoyance
as I am forced to slow right down
to negotiate the obstacles
in my path.
Then, I cycle on.

Across the road I see a small boy,
about ten years old,
skipping along on his way home
from the corner shop.
Traffic cones block his pavement too.
He runs at them,
leap-frogging each one in turn,
then continues, still skipping, on his way.

I shake my head and laugh.
Where I saw only obstacles,
this wee boy saw challenges, opportunities
and I think to myself,
“That wee boy could certainly teach me
a thing or two!”

© Claire Murray

Are You Sure, Lord?

Lord,

are you sure?
Is it really me that you want?
I’m such a weak person.
Is it really me that you want?
I have such high ideals
that I don’t attain.
Is it really me that you want?
I have so many faults and failings.
Are you sure?
Is it really me that you want?

Claire,
Yes, it’s you that I want!
I sense the desire deep within you
to have an intimate relationship
with me.
I sense your longing to draw close
to me.
I see you try to see yourself
through my eyes.
I see you trying to see others
through my eyes.
I delight each day in your acceptance
of whatever life throws at you
because you see it as an opportunity
to draw close to me.

I sense that longing within you
to achieve your potential,
to become all that I have always intended
that you could be.
I sense your desire
to be whole.

Each day you give to me
the gift of yourself,
such a precious gift!
Each day you offer to me
that essential ingredient
for me to work wonders –
the gift of your will.

Of course it’s you that I want!

(c) Claire Murray

Talents

You sit in the town square,
talking to your friends.
I approach
and stand at a distance
with my hands in my pockets.
You look up, see me
and smile.
Then you gesture for me
to come over.
“What brings you here today, Claire?”
you ask, smiling.

I hold out my hand which is tiny
as I am only a child.
In it are two pebbles.
One of them is purple,
the other turquoise.
Both are rounded and smooth.
They are tiny, but beautiful.
You examine them
in my hand.
“These look beautiful,” you say,
“special, even. Tell me about them.”

“These are the things
that I can do,” I reply.
“The blue one
is the way that I can sing.
The purple one
is the way that I can write.
I only found out recently
that I can do these things.
I didn’t know before.”
I shrug my shoulders
and look down at the ground,
embarrassed.

“Isn’t that a great discovery!”
you exclaim.
“You’ve found your talents!”
You pause for a moment
and then you say,
“Have you decided
what you are going to do with them?”

“I want to give them to you,”
I reply.
I hold out my hand
and you carefully pick up
the two stones
“Let me think about this,” you say,
and you close your eyes
for a few minutes.

When you open them you say,
“Claire, I’m delighted
that you have finally discovered the talents
that my Daddy gave to you
and I love the way
that you are prepared
to give them to me.
I would love to use your talents.
But I want to ask you something.
Will you look after them for me?
Will you hold onto them for now
and when I need to use them
I’ll come to you
and I’ll let you know?

I nod.
I lift the two pebbles
back out of your hand
and return them to my pocket.
Then we sit side by side,
contentedly in the sun.

© Claire Murray

Burst Bubble

Lord,
a long, long time ago
I was hurt deeply
by thoughtless words
promptly forgotten by the speaker.
Words that cut into my soul
at the time
and remain there to this day.

On that day,
the fragile bubble of my confidence
burst.

Lord, is it possible
to rebuild a bubble
that has been burst?

I can’t do this
on my own.
Can you help me?

Claire,
why don’t you and me
blow a new bubble for you?
We’ll do it together!

I smile.

© Claire Murray

Burst Bubble

Lord,
a long, long time ago
I was hurt deeply
by thoughtless words
promptly forgotten by the speaker.
Words that cut into my soul
at the time
and remain there to this day.

On that day,
the fragile bubble of my confidence
burst.

Lord, is it possible
to rebuild a bubble
that has been burst?

I can’t do this
on my own.
Can you help me?

Claire,
why don’t you and me
blow a new bubble for you?
We’ll do it together!

I smile.

© Claire Murray, 11th November 2011

My Pile of Stones

I drag behind me
a wooden pallet.
Piled upon it
are rocks and boulders.
It’s a heavy load
for a child.
I struggle,
trying to pull it
across the town square.
It’s too much for me
and I stop,
exhausted.
I can go no further.

You appear by my side,
arm around my shoulder.
“What are all these, Claire?”
you ask.
“It’s all of my work,” I reply.
“I have so much to do
and sometimes
it just feels impossible.
I don’t know
whether I can do it.”

You look at my pile of stones.
One of them is massive.
You point to it and say,
“Tell me about that one.”
“That’s my night class,”
I reply.
“It’s really tough.”

“I can help you with that,”
you reply.
“Just leave it with me.
I will send people to help you.
Look out for them.
Ask them for help
and you will receive it.
I will act through them.
But right now,
you’re tired.
You need to rest.
Rest with me.”

I snuggle up against you
and fall asleep.

© Claire Murray, 9th November 2011

Transformation

Green seaweed fringes a rock
down by the sea,
slimey to touch,
treacherous to walk on,
something to avoid, really,
or is it?

A grey cloud drifts across
another dull sky.
It’s so unremarkable, so insignificant.
Hardly worth a second glance, really,
or is it?

The tide creeps in
and slowly encircles a rock
down by the sea.
It gently lifts the fringe of green
and in time submerges it.
Free at last,
the green seaweed dances and sways,
green tendrils waving gracefully
in the lapping water,
calming, relaxing to behold.
Such a transformation!
Almost hypnotic beauty here!

Evening falls.
The sun sinks low in the sky
right behind a small, grey cloud,
illuminating it with gentle rays,
painting it delicate shades of pink.
Such a transformation!
Such breath-taking beauty here!

In rare moments
I manage to immerse myself
in My God,
I achieve that elusive surrender,
forgetting about myself
and losing myself in Him.
For those few precious moments
My God fills me, transforms me
and I become all that He has always intended
that I could be.
For that short time
I am whole again.
Such a transformation!
Such heart-warming beauty here!

© Claire Murray

Long View

I look behind me
and I see Black Mountain,
wreathed in lilac mist,
a picture of beauty, peace
and stillness.

That’s funny!
I didn’t see that
as I drove over Black Mountain this morning,
rushing on my way to work.
I saw grey mist,
a dull sky,
minutes passing on the clock;
that’s all!

Yet now, from a distance,
I see Black Mountain
from a whole new perspective.
I must remember
to step back more often,
take the long view
and trust that where I am
is exactly where I am meant to be
even when all that I can see around me
is mist.

© Claire Murray

 

The Long View

I look behind me
and I see Black Mountain,
wreathed in lilac mist,
a picture of beauty, peace
and stillness.

That’s funny!
I didn’t see that
as I drove over Black Mountain this morning,
rushing on my way to work.
I saw grey mist,
a dull sky,
minutes passing on the clock;
that’s all!

Yet now, from a distance,
I see Black Mountain
from a whole new perspective.
I must remember
to step back more often,
take the long view
and trust that where I am
is exactly where I am meant to be
even when all that I can see around me
is mist.

© Claire Murray, 4th November 2011

Morning Offering

Lord,

I’m knackered today.
I don’t know
if I’ll be of any use to you.

I’m knackered today
but I offer myself to you
just the way I am.

I’m knackered today
but I gladly accept from you
the precious gift of today.

I’m knackered today
but I’ll try to live today for you
to the best of my ability.

I’m knackered today
but I can feel your love
through my fatigue.

I’m knackered today.
Help me today to love myself
and to love others.

I’m knackered today
and I offer my tiredness
as a gift to you.

I’m knackered today.
Help me to focus on you
and not on my weariness.

I’m knackered today
but I accept this tiredness
that you have sent my way.

I’m knackered today.
Help me to draw close to you
throughout the day.

© Claire Murray