I Never Left

It’s a wet, spring day –
too wet to walk the short distance
to the chapel for Adoration
so we drive there instead.

It’s cosy here.
A handful of people
dotted around the chapel.
Jesus on the altar.
Peace all around.

A sense of giving God His place.

And as we kneel there in adoration,
a feeling that Jesus
is saying something to me today,
just three little words –
“I never left.”

A memory of a promise
made by Jesus –
“Know that I am with you always.
Yes, till the end of time.”

A promise that Jesus has kept,
for almost two thousand years,
through all of the Masses
that have been offered,
when bread and wine
become Jesus –
body, blood, soul and divinity.

In a sense, Jesus left
when He ascended into heaven
but in another sense
Jesus never left
because of His presence
in the Eucharist.

At every Mass,
in every tabernacle,
Jesus is.

Jesus never left …
I gaze up at Him
in the monstrance on the altar
and I’m fascinated.

(Isn’t God just amazing???)

© Claire Murray, 20th March 2026
(Matthew 28, verse 20)

Pharisee and the Tax Collector

Today’s Gospel
is the story of the Pharisee
and the tax collector
who both go to the temple
to “pray”.

While the tax collector
prays from the heart,
acknowledging his faults
and begging for mercy,
the Pharisee indulges
in singing his own praises
and condemning the tax collector
whom he regards
with disdain.

It’s oh, so clear to us,
the listeners,
to see who leaves the temple
at peace with God.

But it’s also oh, so easy
to condemn the Pharisee
in the same superior way
that he condemned
the tax collector.

In our ordinary, daily lives
we can also be easily tempted,
like the Pharisee,
to compare ourselves,
very favourably
with others.

Today’s Gospel challenges us
to do better than that.
It challenges us
to exchange
that comfortable sense
of self-righteousness
for humility.

In my attitude towards others,
who have I most closely resembled today –
the Pharisee
or the tax collector?

© Claire Murray, 26th March 2022
(Luke 18: 9-14)

Greatest in Heaven

The disciples ask Jesus
a question –
“Who will be the greatest
in the kingdom of Heaven?”
And I sense their wondering
as they wait to hear
Jesus’s answer.

Will it be
the greatest teacher,
the greatest healer
or the one who casts out
the most devils?

Will it be one
who raises the dead to life
or a great king
who governs his people fairly?

Will it be someone
who works endlessly
with the poor
or perhaps a man
with tremendous wisdom?

Hmmm …
which will it be?

Before answering
Jesus calls over
a wee child
whom He then presents
to His disciples
before explaining –
the greatest in Heaven
is someone who is as humble
as this youngster.

A sense of astonishment
among Jesus’s disciples
as a sad realisation dawns –
that simply by posing this question
they have demonstrated
that none of them could possibly be
the greatest in the kingdom of Heaven.

A challenge to each of us
to strive in life
to be as trusting
as a child
and as humble
as Jesus Himself.
A tall order, surely.
Aren’t we blessed
to have Jesus by our side
to help us
every step of the way?

(c) Claire Murray

Salmon

In today’s Gospel
Jesus explains His purpose in life
to Herod –
“ … for this I came into the world –
to bear testimony to the truth.”
I find myself asking God,
“What about me, Lord?
What’s my purpose?”

I sense an answer from My God
that is instant, surprising
and delightful.
“Claire,
you are like the salmon.
You came from Me
and your purpose is
to find your way back to Me
during your time
on Earth.”

Immediately,
I think about the salmon
who return to the source
of the River Roe,
high up in the Sperrins
in springtime.

From wild Atlantic to Lough Foyle,
upstream to Limavady and Dungiven,
further upstream to Dungiven,
and yet further upsteam
to the shallow, gravelly river beds
of the small stream
near the Mass Rock
at Glenshane.

Salmon who journey
thousands of miles,
drawn inexplicably
to the exact, remote spot
in the Sperrins
where life for them began.

I give thanks to My God
for that still, quiet,
irresistible voice
deep within me
that draws me
closer to Him.
and I pray that, like the salmon,
I too may fulfil my purpose
and find my way
back my origin
during my time here
on Earth.

© Claire Murray, 30th October 2022
(John, 18: 33-37)

Important for Us to be Here

Many, many times
I have stood in line
for Communion
and thought,
“Lord, it is good for us
to be here!”

But today
a different thought strikes me,
“Lord, it’s IMPORTANT for us
to be here!”

I have a sense
that there is more
to attending this Latin Mass
than kneeling
in the presence of My God
in an atmosphere
steeped
in reverence, respect
and awe.

I have a sense that here,
in the very real presence
of Jesus,
I need to ask an important question –
“Lord,
what must I do
to inherit eternal life?”
(just like the young man
in Matthew’s Gospel).

It’s a question
that I need to ask frequently
as I strive to work out
my own salvation
one day at a time.

And so,
as I stand in line
for Communion
I am deeply aware
of how wonderful it is
to be here
and how important it is
to be here …
and I feel truly blessed.

© Claire Murray, 21st August 2022
(Matthew 19:16-20)

Before I Formed You

We are living
in unprecedented times.
Daily media broadcasts
concerning pandemics,
climate emergencies,
fuel shortages
and the culling of farm animals
on a global scale.

Some days
my head is just spinning.

This morning
as I settle down to pray
I read the words of Jeremiah:
“Before I formed you
in the womb
I knew you.”

These words
stop me in my tracks.

Instantly
I feel anchored.
Such a sense
of having been placed here
by My God –
here, in Belfast,
in these peculiar times.

A sense of being
not only placed here
but of being anchored here –
held firmly in place
by My God.
Right beside me
is my husband, Paul –
also steadfastly anchored.

My head no longer feels
like it’s spinning.
Instead, I feel reassured
and ready.

© Claire Murray, 28th July 2022
(Jer: 1-9)

The Finger of God

As I stand in line for Communion
at the Latin Mass
I have a very real sense
that it’s the finger of God
that has brought me here.

Looking back now
I can see
that my journey here began
a long time ago
when I made a decision
that was absolutely horrendous.

I sense that
at that exact moment
My God stepped in
and, just like a parent
teaching a child to walk,
He took me very gently
by the hand
and led me on a journey
that would end right here.
My God did all of this
very tenderly
and I am reminded
of the prophet Hosea
who described God
as leading the Jewish people
with “leading strings of love.”

So today,
as I stand in line for Communion,
I find myself thinking
about the finger of God
and how He has guided me
right here
to Latin Mass
and I find myself fascinated
at how gentle and patient
My God has been
with someone
as foolish as me.

© Claire Murray

Storytelling

Mammy used to tell stories
when she worked
in our local library.
Every Tuesday afternoon
she would gather around her
all of the children,
then sit down
and read them a story.

The children used to sit
at Mammy’s feet
wide-eyed
and listening intently
while, just around the corner …
all of the adults,
apparently browsing through books
listened as well!

And sure why not?
Doesn’t everyone love
a good story?

This pops into my head
when I read this morning
about Jesus
by the shores of Lake Genasareth.

Simon Peter’s boat
is moored just off-shore
after a fruitless night
of fishing
while nearby
his disappointed crew of fishermen
wash out their nets.
Getting into Simon Peter’s boat,
Jesus begins to teach the crowd.

I wonder about the fishermen.

Washing their nets
by the water’s edge
they are perfectly positioned
to hear every word
that Jesus says.
And I wonder whether,
under the guise of working
the fishermen, too, listen-in
to all the Jesus has to say
(just like the adults
in the library)?

And sure why not?
Doesn’t everyone love
a good story?

You see, not only was Jesus
a gifted teacher,
he was a master storyteller
as well!

© Claire Murray 3rd July 2022
(Luke 5: 1-11)

My Most Important Prayer

Jesus said,
“Whatever you ask the Father
in My name,
He will give you.”

And so I pray
for the most important intention
that I have today.
In fact, it’s probably
the most important intention
that I will ever have –
I pray for those
who are dear to me
who have lost their faith.

I pray that Almighty God,
for whom nothing is impossible
and who was able to touch the heart
of even the most hardened opponent,
Saint Paul,
will touch their hearts
so that they may come to believe
in Jesus
and follow Jesus.
Then,
they may have the opportunity
to spend eternity
in peace and happiness
in heaven.

A prayer to save the souls
of people I love –
surely this is the most important prayer
that I’ll ever say?

© Claire Murray, 29th May 2022
John 16:23

Walk Humbly

Today
as I pray the Rosary
I’m particularly struck
by a Luminous mystery –
the baptism of Our Lord.

Here we find Jesus,
the son of God,
approaching John the Baptist
to ask for baptism.
Jesus, the son of God,
humbly bows his head
as John, the wild holy man
of the wilderness,
pours the waters of the Jordan
over him.

No pomp.
No ceremony.
No sense of status.
And absolutely no sense of
“Do you know who I am?”

Instead …
deep humility.

And as I ponder this mystery
I sense a challenge
to walk humbly with My God
in my life …
just as Jesus did.

© Claire Murray, 20th August 2021

(Matthew 3: 13-17 & Micah 6:8)