You’re a Big Girl Now!

I have a sense of myself
as a small girl
in my own garden
learning how to ride
my big two wheeler bike.
This takes concentration.
Most of the time
my cycling is fine now,
but occasionally I still wobble.

My God, My Daddy has been teaching me.
He stands in the middle of the garden
looking on in delight
at the progress I have made.

Eventually I finish my laps of the garden
and sit down beside My Daddy in the sun.
He has something to say.

“Claire, you’re a big girl now
and you know how to ride your bike.
It’s time for you now
to leave the safety of the garden.
Cycling’s not easy, you know.
You’ll encounter hills
which will be great fun to go down
but really difficult to climb.
When that happens,
you just have to remember
to keep pedalling.”

“The other important thing to remember
is that no matter how big you grow
you’ll still be my wee girl
and I’ll still be your Daddy,
looking out for you.”

My Daddy opens the gate
and I cycle out,
a little wobbly, a little scared
but determined
because cycling is something
that I really want to do.

© Claire Murray

Scones

Lord, did you know
that I make lovely scones?
I make them
just the way that I like them.
I share my scones with other people too
but if they don’t like them
it really doesn’t matter to me
because I like my scones
just the way they are.

Lord, I would love to feel the same way
about my singing
as I feel about my scones.
I long to be able to sing for you
without being concerned about
what other people might think.

Lord, help me to remember
that for you,
my best is always good enough
and that when I sing for you
what other people think
really doesn’t matter.

Lord, help me to have the same attitude
towards my singing
as I have towards my scones.

© Claire Murray

Back to Our Roots

This morning
Paul and I went back to our roots.

Over twenty five years ago
we met at the sign of peace
at lunchtime Mass
in the Chaplaincy at Queen’s.

This morning
we went to Monday morning Mass
at Hannahstown.

This morning
there was no official
sign of peace
but many silent “I love you”s
were exchanged
through gentle nudges and smiles
during Mass.

This morning
I enjoyed the sacrifice of the Mass
in the presence of My God
whom I love deeply
and in the company of Paul
with whom I’m deeply in love.

This morning
as I knelt in the presence of My God
with Paul by my side
I felt truly blessed.

© Claire Murray 6th February 2012

The Presentation

Today, on the Feast of the Presentation,
I come before My God
and I present myself to Him,
just the way I am
with all of my strengths and weaknesses,
aspects of myself
that I am comfortable with
and aspects of myself
that I struggle to understand.

I present to My God
the people in my life
who are precious to me
and all of the things
that worry and preoccupy me.

And as I stand before My God
I become aware that what I need to do
is to place all of my cares
into His gentle, capable hands
for safe-keeping.

Today, on the Feast of the Presentation,
I rest, at peace,
in the presence of My God.

© Claire Murray

I Pitch My Tent

I Pitch My Tent

Today I pitch my tent
where I am right now
with my wonderful, imperfect husband, Paul,
my fun-loving, imperfect children,
my loving, imperfect parents,
my dutiful, imperfect brothers
and my understanding, imperfect sister,
Paul’s generous, imperfect parents
and my caring, imperfect friends.

Today I choose to pitch my tent
with my rewarding, imperfect job,
my lively, imperfect students
and my patient, imperfect colleagues.

Today I choose to pitch my tent
with my helpful, imperfect neighbours
in quiet, imperfect Dundrod.

And as I pitch my tent
I am reminded
not to expect perfection
in myself or in others.
I sense that right here, right now
is exactly where I am meant to be.
I feel a deep sense of peace
and a deep sense of gratitude
for my blessed, imperfect life.

© Claire Murray