My Daddy’s Hands

My Daddy is a joiner by trade
and he used to spend all day,
every day,
working with his hands.
And yet despite this,
the palms of his hands
were always really soft.

I used to love holding my Daddy’s hand
when we would go out
for a walk
because my Daddy’s hands
were always warm
and soft
and when I held my Daddy’s hand
I felt safe.

During Mass this evening
into my head popped the phrase
about God holding us
in the palm of His hand.
I was struck by the thought
of how soft and tender
the palm of God’s hands would be,
just like my Daddy’s hands.
Nestled in the palm of My God’s hands
I can feel safe, secure
and cosy.
In those hands,
so powerful
and yet so gentle,
I can rest, reassured,
knowing that My God will provide me
with everything that I need.

Then I smile as I remember
that my Daddy,
with the big, soft hands,
who loves me so much
and who made me feel so safe
on my childhood walks
used to spend all day long
working with wood,
just like Jesus!

© Claire Murray, 30th August 2014

Eyes of Love

Lord,
When people I care about
fall out with each other
I often seem to find myself
caught in the middle,
able to see the rights and wrongs,
the blindness and the hurt
on each side.
I find myself wishing
that these people,
who feel so annoyed with each other
and so hurt,
could only get along.

Is that what it’s like for you, Lord?
You look at us through eyes of love
and in your eyes each one of us is a work of art,
a treasure,
someone to be cherished
and deeply loved.
But we so often fail to see each other
through eyes of love
and we often find ourselves
at loggerheads.
Do you feel overwhelmed with sadness
when we fall out among ourselves
yet again?

Lord,
help me not to despair
in my role as peace-maker.
Help me to deal with the stress,
help me not to give up
and help me to remember
to look at each person
through eyes of love.

© Claire Murray

Hand in Hand

Lord,
I find myself in a situation
that I’d rather not be in
and I hear you say to me,
“Claire,
you are where you are;
that can’t be helped.
The question for you now is this,
‘How do you choose
to move on from this?’

An image forms in my mind.

I see myself,
a wee girl
with black pigtails
and tear-stained cheeks,
standing, uncertainly.

I look up
and I see you standing,
waiting patiently
as you hold out your hand to me,
inviting me to join you.

I hesitate for a moment,
considering my options
before walking over to you
and taking your hand.

As we walk along together,
we begin to chat.

“Claire,” you say,
“remember that you don’t always
need to understand
but you do need
to trust in me.
Do you trust me?”
I nod
“Then everything is going to be alright”.
And I know that your words are true,
no matter what way
this situation turns out.

We continue to walk along,
hand in hand,
together.

© Claire Murray

Lost and Found (Luke 15: 11-32)

A young man stood,
with all of the arrogance of youth,
looking down at his father
impatiently.
He viewed with disdain
the life that his father,
by dint of hard work,
had carved out for himself
and his family.
This was all such a waste of time
when there was a whole world out there,
waiting for him to discover
and enjoy!

The young man stood, confidently,
demanding to be given
all that was rightfully his,
refusing to listen to reason
as his father tried to encourage him
not to rush headlong, headstrong
and alone
into this venture.

But the young man’s mind was made up
and he later set off,
with his fortune in a bag
and a spring in his step,
looking forward to meeting
the destiny that he desired.

His father was inconsolable;
his beloved son was lost to him.

Some years later,
a bedraggled figure approached
the family home
uncertainly,
and the father gave a roar of delight
at the return of his long-lost son.
He rushed to meet his son,
greeting him with a bear hug.
The young man stood before him,
looking down at the ground,
unable to meet his father’s eyes.

This young man had lost
everything.
After initially living the high life
in an exotic land,
partying and celebrating,
he had lost all of his fortune
and with it,
all of his fair weather friends.
He had been left penniless,
alone,
and so lonely!

But just when he thought
that he had lost everything,
the young man found wisdom.
He realised
that his difficulties
were entirely of his own making
and that he had nobody to blame
but himself.

The young man found inspiration
when he realised
that he could go home to his father
and take up a place there,
not as a son,
but as one of the farm labourers.

The young man found humility
and decided to return to his father
and to admit
that he had been oh, so wrong.

The young man found courage
that he needed
to return home and face public humiliation
because of his abject failure.

Finally,
as the humble and penitent young man stood before his father,
looking down at the ground,
he found forgiveness
and he realised
that he hadn’t lost everything after all;
he had found his father’s love.

Nothing else mattered.

© Claire Murray

I Love You in My Heart and Soul

Dolores adores her grandchildren
and is often heard saying to them,
“Sure don’t you know I love you
in my heart and soul?”
Dolores is in her element
when her grandchildren
are at her house.

Early this morning
I dropped Aoife off
at her Granny’s house.

After a while,
a barefooted, sleepy Dolores,
dressed in her pink dressing gown,
padded into the kitchen
where she spotted Aoife,
resplendent in peacock blue pyjamas,
standing, drinking tea.

Dolores’s face lit up
in a massive smile of welcome
and she happily sat herself down
at the kitchen table,
for a wee chat
with Aoife,
one of her favourite people
in the whole world.

The sheer and utter delight
that I saw on Dolores’s face
when she greeted Aoife this morning
reminded me of way
that Our God rejoices
in every single one of us
and considers each one of us
to be a cause for celebration,
someone truly remarkable, unique
and precious.

It reminded me
that in much the same way
that Dolores adores
each of her grandchildren,
Our God is saying to each one of us,
every day,
“Don’t you know that I love you
in my heart and soul?”

(c) Claire Murray

Our Father

On Mothers’ Day
I felt frustrated
by my youngsters’ fighting
and I felt
that a real present for me
would have been a truce.

Yesterday at Mass in Hannahstown,
as we all prayed the Our Father,
I had a sense of God as a parent,
surrounded by squabbling youngsters
and I felt that God was saying to me,
“If you want to show me
how much you love me,
love one another.”

It struck me
that the many teachings
of the Gospels
can be distilled
into six words,
“Love God
and love one another” .

Only six small words
but one huge challenge
for all of us!

© Claire Murray

Bow Street Mall

Today, in Bow Street Mall,
I noticed a wee girl
as she spied her Daddy
at the other side of the shop.

Her face lit up with delight
and she ran over to her Daddy,
with her arms outstretched.

Her Daddy grinned,
crouched down,
reached out his arms
and swept his wee girl
up into the air,
swirling her round
as they both laughed
in sheer delight.

Every time I approach
My God, My Daddy
in prayer,
he is ready to welcome me
in the same way,
with open arms
and is delighted
simply to spend time with me,
his wee girl.

As I remember that wee girl
with her Daddy,
the question in my mind is this:
do I approach My God, My Daddy,
with the same love, trust and confidence
as that wee girl
in Bow Street Mall?

© Claire Murray

Brand New Baby

Today I saw a brand new baby girl,
all wrapped in pink,
sound asleep in her pram,
oblivious to the world.
And I thought to myself,
“Oh, she is so beautiful!”

God gave me a wee nudge,
raised an eyebrow
and laughed.
“Guess what, Claire?” he said,
“That’s just how I see you!
I think that you’re amazing,
fantastic,
not for anything that you do,
but just for being you!”

© Claire Murray

In the Presence of My God

As I settle into prayer,
in the presence of My God,
all my layers of pretence slip away
and I become a wee girl.

I am about three years old,
wearing a summer dress
and sandals.
I walk into a room
seeking one thing only,
My God,
My Daddy.

My Daddy is sitting down,
smiling,
watching me.
I run over to him,
clamber up onto his lap
and snuggle into him.
My Daddy wraps his arms
around me,
holding me close.

In the arms of My God, My Daddy,
I feel loved
just for being me.

I am safe.

© Claire Murray

My Daddy

My Daddy has big, blue eyes,
big, bushy eyebrows
and big soft hands.
My Daddy is a big softie.

When I’m going to Derry
My Daddy buys in
my favourite sticky buns
from Doherty’s bakery.
My Daddy brings me to Fiorentini’s
for banana splits.
My Daddy instructs me
not to work too hard
or too late.

As a first year student at Thornhill
I was convinced
that My Daddy had the most important job
of all of the Daddies in my class.
I proudly told my class mates
that every year
My Daddy picked the Christmas tree for Derry
that would stand outside the Guildhall.
I was so proud of him!

But the most important thing
about My Daddy
is that My Daddy loves me
and makes me feel special.
In the love that My Daddy has for me
I catch a brief glimpse of the love
that My God has for me
and I feel truly blessed.

No matter how grown-up I am,
or how many responsibilities I undertake in life,
in My Daddy’s eyes,
I’m still his wee girl,
his Wee Dote.

When I say the words, “My Daddy”,
I always say them with pride
and with love.

© Claire Murray