Vigil

Easter Saturday felt
like a day without direction,
too late for the death of Jesus
and yet too early
for his Resurrection.
It felt like a day spent
in no-man’s land.

But at the Easter Vigil Mass at Fanavolty,
on Easter Saturday night,
that sense of nothingness was replaced
by a sense of anticipation
and by a sense of unity
as the congregation waited
in semi-darkness
while Fr Pat lit the Paschal fire
behind the altar.

Together we watched
as altar servers lit candles
which, in turn,
lit other candles
so that gentle light spread
throughout the church.
And once our candles
had dispelled the darkness,
together we all waited
for readings of the Good News.

Our Easter Vigil Mass
was all about
waiting, anticipation, purpose
and expectancy.

Together, we waited in prayer.
Together, we spread the light
and together we listened
to the Good News
that Jesus is risen.

Halleluia!

© Claire Murray

Vigil

Easter Saturday felt
like a day without direction,
too late for the death of Jesus
and yet too early
for his Resurrection.
It felt like a day spent
in no-man’s land.

But at the Easter Vigil Mass at Fanavolty,
on Easter Saturday night,
that sense of nothingness was replaced
by a sense of anticipation
and by a sense of unity
as the congregation waited
in semi-darkness
while Fr Pat lit the Paschal fire
behind the altar.

Together we watched
as altar servers lit candles
which, in turn,
lit other candles
so that gentle light spread
throughout the church.
And once our candles
had dispelled the darkness,
together we all waited
for readings of the Good News.

Our Easter Vigil Mass
was all about
waiting, anticipation, purpose
and expectancy.

Together, we waited in prayer.
Together, we spread the light
and together we listened
to the Good News
that Jesus is risen.

Halleluia! © Claire Murray, 30th March 2013

Advocate

On the day that I was crucified,
throngs of people crowded into Jerusalem.
The air was ripe with excitement
as word of my capture spread.
What would happen in Jerusalem today?
The death of a false prophet?
Or would God rescue his Chosen One
in a blaze of glory?

People were fascinated by me –
one day,
being carried joyfully on men’s shoulders
and a few days later
being forced to carry my own cross.

Before the crucifixion
came the mockery,
first of all, at the high priest’s house
and then at Herod’s palace.
Men almost fought,
so keen were they
to get the chance
to impress their friends
by making fun of me.

And yet, amid all of the jeering
I had two unlikely advocates
who had the courage
to speak up for me.

The first was Pilate,
a leader among the oppressors
of my people,
a man with a strong sense of justice
who argued my case persuasively
before crowds of Jews.
But faced with throngs of thousands,
all baying for my blood,
and threatening to riot
his courage crumbled
and eventually Pilate gave the order
for my execution.

My other advocate
was a thief,
himself in the throes of the agony
of crucifixion,
a man of remarkable insight
who looked upon my stripped,
raw, battered body
and saw me
for who I really am.

You see,
in the eyes of Pilate
I was an unfortunate victim
but in the eyes of the thief,
I was a King!

© Claire Murray

Hanging On Your Every Word

Lord,
every day people surrounded you
hanging on your every word,
words of love.
Crowds followed you
wherever you went,
longing to be touched by you
and to be made whole again.

When you cured the man
lowered down through the roof
by his friends
and forgave his sins,
people listened.

When you healed the paralytic
in the temple on the Sabbath,
people watched.

When you chose to keep company
with the outcasts of society,
people talked.

Yet even as you were preparing
to give up your life
for these people,
you heard whispers and rumours
from Jewish officials
dotted among the crowds
and your heart sank.

You sighed
before cleverly answering questions
that had been carefully constructed
to entrap you.

You felt weary
as you contemplated
the humiliation and agony
that lay ahead
and that you would make no effort
to avoid.

Many listened with an open heart
to the words of love that you spoke
but a few others hung on your every word,
determined to twist your words of love
and to use them to leave you
hanging on a cross.

© Claire Murray

Grey Ash Wednesday

Today, as I walked to work
I paused, as usual,
at the Waterfront Hall
to search for beauty
in the imperfect reflection of the sky
on the waters of the Lagan.

On its surface I usually see
a rising sun,
pastel coloured clouds,
street lights,
even birds in flight.

The beauty that I usually see there
offers me hope
that despite my flaws
my life will manage
to reflect for others
a beauty that comes from My God.

Today, as I looked for beauty
in the Lagan
on a grey, wet, windy
Ash Wednesday morning,
I found none.
I was deeply disappointed.

But as I gazed,
disconsolately,
at the Lagan,
I noticed a small, black shape
drawing a “V” in the water
as it moved steadily downstream.

A shining, black arc
rose from the water
and plunged under it again.
Just as I realised
that I was watching a seal,
it disappeared from view.

I laughed, reminded
not to lose heart
because even on a grey, wet, windy
Ash Wednesday morning,
there is beauty to be found
by those who take the time
to look for it.

© Claire Murray

Easter Saturday at St Aengus’s

Lord,
As I set out on my holiday on Easter Saturday,
I called into the chapel of St Aengus.
It’s an unusual wee chapel which is round in shape
and takes as its inspiration
the ancient round fort of Grianán of Aileach
which proudly crowns the hill at Burt.

The sun, shining through stained glass,
painted the walls in multi-coloured tones.
Light filtered through the steeple
that forms a peak in the roof,
gently illuminating the ceiling
with soft, white light.
In the sunlight, the chapel of St Aengus
was undeniably beautiful.

But something was missing –
You.
The tabernacle doors lay wide open,
displaying a gaping, black interior.
No sanctuary lamp adorned the altar.
The usual sense of peace found in this house of God
had been replaced
by a sense of emptiness, absence,
void and vacuum.
On this Easter Saturday,
the chapel of St Aengus looked beautiful
but felt bleak.

I look forward, on my return journey,
to paying another visit to the church of St Aengus.
This time, I anticipate a sense
of warmth and welcome,
prayer, peace and Presence.
I look forward to the comforting, red glow
of the sanctuary lamp
which will gently assure me,
“God is home again!
He has returned!
Welcome!”

(c) Claire Murray

Where Were They?

Lord,
Where were they on that day?
When angry crowds
were whipped into a frenzy
by jealous religious leaders
and hoards of people
were baying for Your precious blood,
where were they?
All of those people
whom You healed?
The people whose lives You touched?
The crowds who hung
on Your every word?
Where were they on that day?

The ten lepers you cleansed?
The lame man by the pool
whom you made walk?
The paralysed man
lowered down through the roof?
The woman with the haemorrhage?
Tiny Nicodemus who scaled a tall tree
just to catch a glimpse of You?
The five thousand whom you fed?
Where were they on that day?

Were they among the crowd?
Did they get carried away
by mass hysteria?
Did they roar, “Crucify Him!”
or did they simply remain silent,
too terrified to speak
in an incensed and angry mob?

Yet what haunts me
is that I wonder
whether, in those circumstances,
I would have had the courage
to speak up for you myself?

© Claire Murray

All On Your Own

Lord,
You knew what lay ahead of You –
humiliation, torture, agony
and eventually,
death.
In the meantime
You were trying to overcome
feelings of terror and trepidation.

You were being asked
to subject yourself
to a violent and brutal execution.
And did you ask Your Father
to let you opt out?
Well, You thought about it
but decided against it.
Instead, You decided
to make the ultimate sacrifice
for us.

But in Your humanity
You did ask for one thing,
one small thing –
company.
You asked your closet companions
to stay awake,
to watch for one hour
so that you wouldn’t have
to face this ordeal
all on Your own.

Even that small luxury
was denied to you
as your companions,
unaware of what lay ahead,
fell asleep one by one.
You were left to endure
a long night of terror, dread and distress
all on Your own.

Three times
you approached your companions
seeking the solace of friends.
Three times
you were disappointed
and You were forced to confront
the longest and most dreadful of nights
all on Your own.

(c) Claire Murray